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2009-08-14 01:52 pm
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2009-08-14 10:34 am
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Huh, I forgot that that was what I was dreaming about last night until just now. Mam's talking about Grandad to a supplier, and I just remembered my nightmare. I dreamed that my Grandad was still alive. Now, that really doesn't seem that bad, I know. And it really wouldn't have been - if I didn't remember the whole way through the dream that I had gone to his funeral, that I had spent two days in the house with his body, that I had read at his Mass and comforted my mother, brother, sisters, cousins through the process. Not a nice thing to be reminded this morning, I would have been happier if I could have forgotten.

In other news, this morning I totally forgot the speed limit on the road up to work. So I'm there, happily driving along, keeping my speed to 80 km/h, and I can't figure out why the cars in front are getting further and further away from me. I was like, "I'm not driving that slowly, am I?". Until I realised that, actually, yeah. 20 below the speed limit here. *rolls eyes at self*
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2009-08-13 01:22 pm
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This is my favourite ELO song EVER. I really really love it. So upbeat and happy, and it was the only one I knew of theirs for the longest time. Adoration! Plus, it doesn't hurt that I hear it and start to bounce. Hey, there, Mr. Blue (bounce bounce), we're so pleased to be with you (bounce bounce). :)
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2009-08-11 02:47 pm
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I cannot stop listening to New Perspective. Oooh, A Punk! Ok, so maybe something can drag me away. Not for long, probably, but still! God, I love days off.
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2009-08-10 01:18 pm
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This was less distressing when I didn't know who the people the author was killing off were. ZACK! ANDY! Not really so much Quinn, but he seems decent enough, so !

... It's still an awesome read, though.

ETA: Ryland!! No!! Ryland!! (And in my head, Ray and Gabe get out alive, ok?!)
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2009-08-10 09:31 am
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Good Morning World

So far this morning I've had to deal with: My sister taking an hour to get out of the house, being stuck behind a car going zero kph. Being caught in front of a driver doing 120 kph. Getting caught at the very last second at 2 traffic lights (which, admittedly, wasn't so bad, considering I had a clear run most of the way) and - my favourite - almost getting mowed into by a people carrier coming the Wrong Way up a stretch of road then not stopping until he was halfway onto the roundabout. I ask you. Here's hoping that the rest of today will give me less reasons to be pissy.

(Also, I think if my aunt is as disgustingly impolite as she's been to me the past two days when I go to visit Nanny again this evening, I might actually strangle her. Ignoring her doesn't seem to be working, and - unlike her - I actually have some manners when it comes to telling people off. It's actually deplorable, and I know she was raised better. ... Yes, I'm aware I sound like an old woman. I don't care. It's pissing me the hell off.)
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2009-08-05 11:48 am

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How do you talk to a 7 year old about death? Try to be strong for your family when you feel like falling apart? Coordinate the return of people halfway across the world on an emergency schedule and a funeral at the same time? Drive the motorway while you can barely see for tears? Not by yourself, I guess the answer is.

Joseph Stephen Gimblett, beloved brother, husband, father and grandfather. 26th December 1931 - 4th August 2009. Ar dheis Dé go bhfuil sé.
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2009-08-04 08:39 am
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I will never understand that 2 hour ritual that people go through in the mornings to get ready to go out. It takes me, including shower and breakfast, 20 minutes, roughly. From asleep to out the door in 10, if I skip food and get it later. People's interest in their personal hygiene and appearance is commendable. That this leads to hour long delays is not. Also, Little One? Totally an asshole-ish move to have a half-hour long shower after the water heat has been turned off for the morning. Cold showers are not good for chest infections.

On a side note, I can tie up my hair again (yay!) which means it's time to cut it. Also, Grandad's gone further downhill, which sucks ass, quite frankly.
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2009-07-31 12:29 pm
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It's weird...

... that sometimes clichés actually work in real life. I guess there's a reason they're clichés. The same things keep happening to people.
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2009-07-24 10:20 am
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Ugh. I spent like an hour doing Staff Hours yesterday. I think I must've forgotten to save it last night, because it's gone this morning. *headdesk*
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2009-07-20 11:20 pm
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So I'm a Disney Girl.


I always have been, and it's more than likely that I always will be. I'm not even ashamed of it. Because I know that real life isn't all sunshine and roses and fairytale endings. Hell, it isn't even like that more than a quarter of the time. But here's the thing: Disney represents the good things in life. Love, trust, forgiveness. Those feeling's we're afraid to take a chance on in case we get screwed over. Which, maybe sometimes, is a smart idea. But isn't it better to give kids hope for the happy things in life than exposing them to depressives so young? Showing them that if you work hard at something, you'll get something for it, in the end? That there's someone out there for you, that'll maybe have a hope of understanding and supporting you through all the shit that life has to throw at us?

And look at it this way. We all have our dragons to face. Our curses to break. Sometimes it's nice to think that there's someone out there who's faced worse and come through it ok. Even if that someone isn't quite real, they're probably based on someone who is. Someone who got their "happily ever after", in whatever form it takes.

(Yes, I squealed my way through Enchanted again. Like I say, I'm not even sorry. :D LO, come back!! I miss you like hell, girlie.)
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2009-07-20 10:06 am
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So I wrote and posted for the first time in over a year (it was on [livejournal.com profile] anon_lovefest , but it still counts), and it wasn't horrific! It was, however, angst. ??? And it wasn't even Panic! angst. I don't know, my brain, sometimes. *sigh*
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2009-07-17 02:02 pm
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...I think the contact of one of our suppliers is possibly e-flirting with me?? Or else my aunt.  :S :S :S
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2009-07-14 12:03 pm
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Quarterlife crisis at the age of 19

Well, I always was a little old for my age. I'm making a pact today, that I'm going to pick myself up, stop existing and start living. So my escape from reality is gone. That only means that I have to stand my ground. Keltie Colleen, you will never read this but you are a ridiculous inspiration to me in all my doings, so thank you.

1. Time to get fit. Rugby once a week is not enough to keep off my asthma, I can feel it coming back. Plus, the dogs are getting fat. So long walks and happy endorphins!

2. I am not getting a second job for what's left of the summer. I'll try again once I get to Cardiff - I'll have to, a meal every day and a half or so is not an option this time around - but every rejection I get is spiralling me down further, and this is going too far. So my search is officially over for the moment, unless Mam nags me again one too many times.

3. I'm going to try and cut back on the Internet things. I'm pretty much dependant right now, and it's becoming more real to me than real life. It's an addiction, so I'm pretty sure it's not going to be easy, and I don't think I'd be able to go cold turkey, but I'm cutting back.

4. Going to go out more with friends. I miss JA a ridiculous amount when I don't see her for a couple of weeks, and I really need to try and keep in contact with MC and LMC. I suck as a friend lately. Also, LO, babe, I'mma resort to texting you and using up your valuable credit soon. Seriously, codependant.

5. And probably most important - it's time to stop beating up on myself. I am an awesome person - maybe not the prettiest or the cleverest or the funniest, but I am freaking kind and smart and goddamnit, I can be interesting if I put my mind to it. So this is me, getting over my self esteem issues. Probably to the extent that I will soon be an annoying boaster, but I have faith in the people around me to kick me back down to Earth if I need it. I need to love myself the way I love other people. Maybe not quite one of the Ten Commandments, but I reckon getting to the point where I don't care whether I live or die is probably far worse than having a good view of myself.

This is not me caving on my personality and my morals. I'm not going to get myself out of this by succumbing to things that I don't believe in. I am not Ryan Ross, going from straightedge to coke. I'm ready to stop second guessing myself now.
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2009-07-10 12:11 am
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WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK. I AM OUT OF BANDOM FOR 3 DAYS AND I COME BACK TO FIND THAT PANIC HAVE SPLIT IN HALF????? WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS???
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2009-07-06 05:39 pm
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I seriously think this is the best Boards.ie thread I've read in a long time. People today have some sense of entitlement, huh? 

http://www.boards.ie/vbulletin/showthread.php?t=2055606735


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2009-06-26 12:31 pm
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Lucky

Ok, see, now that's freaky. I literally just - just, as in 1 minute 30 seconds ago - decided to look up the lyrics to this awesome song I heard yesterday or the day before, that I hadn't got the name or artist of. It turned out to be Jason Mraz feat. Colbie Calleit with a song called lucky. I log out of the website after getting the song name and guess what comes on the radio??
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2009-06-24 11:22 am
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I don't know whether to laugh or cry at the fact that my life reminds me of an Alannis Morrisette song. :S

What it all comes down to
Is that I haven´t got it all figured out just yet
I´ve got one hand in my pocket
And the other is giving the peace sign
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2009-06-24 09:30 am
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So, last but by no means least, [personal profile] lady_deathangel 's "in your eyes (beauty be found)". Brendon/Ryan, highschool crossdressing. This was the second one I beta'd, and before I read it, I wasn't too gone on it, simply because I'm really not a Brendon/Ryan by themselves fan. But I adored reading this, even though I'm pretty sure I drove the author crazy with how long it took me to get back to her, and my rambling off into other topics when I did email back. I love how vulnerable but still super-strong Brendon is in this, and how Ryan is so freaking messed up and doesn't even know it. It's always weird to read Panic high school AUs, because the scenarios could easily be an alternate history. This one defined itself as an actual AU really early on, which was brilliant for me, considering I tend to get confused.
(She also wrote me the loveliest beta thank you ever. Seriously.)

I'm actually really ridiculously relieved that they're all up now. I can't imagine how the authors themselves feel. :D
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2009-06-22 11:52 am
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I am totally in the mood for office AUs at the moment and I have no idea why, so reading this was a huge pleasure. [livejournal.com profile] elleheartsyou 's Dreaming of Manhattan, my third Big Bang beta. Jon/Spencer and Brendon/Ryan, whereby Spencer works in Decaydance Records, Pete's - as in RL - music producing company. Complete AU, not a twist or what if, but still very very awesome. I love the little glimpse of normality which isn't very normal, and aside from GSF and Brendon/Spencer, I have a soft spot for Jon and Spencer, so I definitely loved how adorable this was.

In other news, LO is home, and I'm stuck at work! :( Not cool.

Ooh, Spencer Reid in the moodtheme! Wtf is it with me and guys with the name Spencer? Excepting your manno from what's-it-called, The Hills, of course.