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So, I had an absurd dream last night, where I was back in 1st year, at a lecture we had over the destruction of lockers, which had somehow in my dream morphed into a lecture on energy. I was still me, but I was 12 again.

And it's kinda had me thinking this morning over what I'd do if I was to get a "do-over", I suppose. If I was to actually be back in first year again, as a 19/12 year old. There's not very much. A couple of big things and a few little lifestyle changes. I'd probably start the guitar earlier, and try and get my body into the habit of being fit - mostly because these are things I'm doing now, and I wouldn't like to change who I am completely from now. Although, having said that, since I'm 19 and I was 12, there'd probably be a lot of lifestyle changes anyway.

There are a couple of major things I'd change if I could - fatal accidents, an Incident. Stuff that hurt the people I care for. But who really knows what is preordained anyway, that I couldn't change if I tried. Would people listen to me if I warned them?

I'd probably try and grab some of my friends a bit younger too. LO, I love you and do not know what I'd do without you, and you'd probably be first on my list. Sorry! (Also, hi, I'm gonna go over comments and your LJ soon as I get into work... you might not catch this before then anyway.) Wouldn't do anything to the ones I caught early - lol, hi JA! If you're still around on LJ...

All in all, there's really not that much. I'm pretty happy with who I am now, and how I've lived my life. In honour of this theme, this(was trying to find Garth Brooks' "The Dance" too, but youtube appears to have let me down...).

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once again i post flaily crush silliness and here you are all eloquent and thoughtful.i fail.

it's a really interesting idea actually. i don't think i want to think too much on it since i didn't exactly enjoy much of my school/friends life til maybe the end of fourth year but it's the kind of thing i'd love in like a movie of my life or something. (btw who would play me d'you think? who would play you in yours?)

also i love you too buddy! ditto on all you said!

and finally 'my way'. that song. what everyone wants to be able to say at the end of it all huh.

Well, I don't know about eloquence, mostly it strikes me as half asleep ramblings... glad you make sense out of it!!

But that's the beauty of going back, you can look at it from an older perspective and change things that you know will make it better. Lol, like getting into SPN from the very beginning? Idk. (And I don't know who'd play me... I don't know that I'd want my life portrayed by someone else. For you, hmm. God, I don't know that either. You're the movie expert, who'd you think? Ever actress ever struck you as "huh, that's me"?)

And I love that so far, I can honestly say that I've lived that song. (And let it lead me, it's been kind of inspirational, lol.)

i didn't even think about spn from the beginning.... *happy sigh*

and that j2 pic is so freakin pretty. gah the skinny tie. and the kiss.

wow.

i have to think about the actor thing. i might ask other people. hmmm.

who am i?

and me too on the sinatra song. though i'm only 19, i'd like to think it'll stay that way.

I have an answer for that question! You're Louise! :-) But lol, no, you should put it forward as a class exercise in actors.

And yep, that's the sad part of what I was thinking about this morning. If I went back to 2002, I'd be waiting until 2005 until FOB got big. :( And the sad thing would be, that if I was my age now in 2005 I'd go over to Warped Tour '05. But if I was only 15 physically, there'd be no way I'd be allowed, so it would suck. As you can see, my morning was filled with random thoughts such as these. :)

I actually want to talk about this more now... might bend your ear on Skype (And dude, I just in real life said actualfax. As in "Oh, you dial the actual fax number?" Our office phones are screwed up right now.)

And yes to the last comment. So very my policy.

oh also go see the awesome;
http://community.livejournal.com/suchoddity/19360.html

how lovely and so very them huh?

she's crazy talented...

Oh dear CHRIST, that's freaking adorable!! Remind me to bookmark when I get home. And the artistry! Wow.